Confession No. 3: Bang Bang Boom

Last night I had a great night.

I was really feeling hot, maybe bacause it's December and the nights are conducive for making love.

Too bad for me, I was in my apartment with my cousin, Marielle, and he was in his house (few blocks away from my apartment). I tried todistract myself by playing with my PSP, but the thoughts of having a very lovely f* before calling it a night couldn't get out of my head.

So I texted him:

Acacia: Hey, wat r u up 2 aftr eating dinr?
BF: Nothing. Y?
Acacia: I feel horny.
BF: Hahaha. Me too. Want me 2 drop by der?
Acacia: Marielle's hir. Can't do it hir.

I was waiting for his reply when I was surprised he was already at my apartment's door. I let him in.

We were in the sofa with the throw pillows on our laps as we watched TV with Marielle. Thank goodness Marielle was busy texting. She was oblivious that BF was giving me a finger f* beneath the throw pillows.

Minutes later, Marielle ran to the bathroom, "Gonna poo for a sec!"

I looked at BF. He gave me a smile. Good thing I was wearing a denim skirt. I immediately pulled my skirt up, my undies down, and he unleashed his rock solid pet through his pant's zipper. I sat on top (and facing him) and gave it a good upward-downward thrust. He slid his hands through my shirt and fondled with my nipples.

"We'll take long if we continue with this," I said. "Give me a doggy hon."
On all fours I went and he banged me from the behind. Ohhh la la. I was suppressing my moans. He went faster and faster, and I felt my cat's getting tighter and tighter.
"Oh my, I'm dripping," I whispered.
"After you, hon!" he exclaimed.
Seconds later, he let his love juice oozed.
Swiftly he tucked in his "guy" and I had myself fixed.
A minute or so, we heard a flush from the comfort room and Marielle was back.
Geez

Confession No. 2: Deep Thoughts at the Christmas Party

1:00 p.m., December 12. I was at our office's Christmas Party. "Sonny", the guy in Confession No. 1, was there too. I was wearing this black and white little dress. As I walked through the hall, I notice him staring at me. With a smile, he greeted that I looked good in the dress.Without a word, I smiled.

During the party I walked in and out of the hall, to and fro the empty room beside the hall, subconsciously hoping that he would follow me. Thoughts were running on my head. I didn't know what to do if he nabbed me from behind and kissed me again --- shall I slap him or kiss him back, if he would caress my skin and hold me in the parts I never thought he would touch --- shall I scream or give in, if I would once more hear his breath and heartbeat --- shall I fall to this prey or not, or are we going to do bang each other --- the first time I'll do it with another man other than my boyfriend.

"But why am I thinking of these things? I already have a boyfriend, and it is his birthday today?!" I told myself.

3:00 p.m., the party got a visitor. Marie, the former secretary of the office where I am working now, gave a visit. My colleagues introduced her to Sonny. Geez, I felt I am turning red with jealousy as the two talked and laughed.

"Jealous? Why should I? I got a boy with me. I am happy with him, and I have nothing to do with Sonny, anyway. Besides, I am just flirting with Sonny. He only plays a game with me. He's a lawyer. That's what every unattached lawyers do"

After an hour, Marie left. I felt relief. Again, Sonny's eyes seemed to be fixated to me. Yeah baby, look at me, only at me!

Hours passed. Nothing happened. My trips to the empty room were useless. He wasn't following me.

Three hours to go before the party ends. I took my drinks to the empty room and drank them all there. Alas, Sonny entered the room. As he saw me drinking, he locked the door. I felt my heart beat like a raging drum. I stood and walked through the dark cubicle within the empty room.

"What are you doing?" He asked, walking towards me.
"Drinking and texting," I replied.
He gently held my arms towards him, "Can I have another kiss?"
I was speechless. I don't know what to do. I covered my face, he kissed my neck and had his left hand fondle my breasts.
"I don't want to kiss you," with trembling voice I protested. I was surprised why I said that. He glared at me upon hearing my words. "I don't want to hold a grudge on you one day."

"Well then," he said, "just give me a hug."
He wrapped me in his arms. I felt warmth, but I didn't embrace him back. Only then I felt scared. He one more kissed my neck, and tried to have his lips land on mine. I refused.

I faked a cry, "you are just playing games on me, Sonny. You are playing with me". He stopped and let me go. "Why did you say that? I am not playing with you," he said.
There was silence.
"Cath, how would you tell that I am only flirting with you?"
"I just know..."
"You are scared," he smirked.
"I ain't scared!" I retorted.
"Oh really? Let's try..." he attempted to kiss me again, but I covered my face. I was blushing. "Aha! You're scared!"
"I am not! I just don't know what to do!"
"I thought you are one tough chick. Fight me then..."
"Try me."
He held my shoulders and was about to gave me a smooch, but I raised my hand and gave him a slight slap.
Sonny released me and then he smiled. "You are still scared."
"You can't blame me."

"How long are you with you boyfriend now?" he asked.
And why the hell did he ask?
"5 years, Sonny."
"Quite long. How old are you?"
"22."
"Better keep the guy, I guess. The two of you have been together for a long time. Sayang naman kasi. As for me, I am scared of commitments. It isn't that I don't want to have someone with my life, but I am just scared of commitments." He sighed. "Are the two of you getting married soon, Cath?"
I laughed, "No. Sinabi ko lang noon na engaged kami, pero joke lang yun. Nagyayabang lang ako. I don't know if I will marry him."
He laughed really hard. I stared at him.
"Ok, maybe I should go back to the party. They might be looking for us."
He went out of the room.

Then it dawned to me. Why didn't I let him kiss me? I was thirsty for his lips, but I let it go away?

I went back to the party faking a smile. I faked a laugh. I faked everything. But one thing was sincere, I approached him when he was alone and said "Sorry about what I did."
"It's ok. Just kiss me again."
"Tsk!" and I left him in one corner of the hall.

Confession No. 1: The First Lesson of the Amateur Cheater

I have a boyfriend. But everytime i see this other guy, i am just tempted to do what he wants me to do --- to cheat on him.

Last tuesday, the other guy, which i will name "sonny", who also is my other boss, wanted to get his christmas gift --- a kiss. In his office i went and kissed him on his lips. He asked for more. My head tells me not to since i already have a bf, but my em0tions are overwhelmed i cannot fight the feeling.

He kissed me on my lips. I kissed him back. His lips tasted like apples. His tongue romanced with mine. My heart pounded very fast. His scent drained my strength.

His kiss. I wanted more, but i felt guilty, thinking that i have cheated on my bf. But it was the first time for five years i felt my blood rushed through my veins. I wanted more.


"are you playing a game on me?" i asked. He laughed, "no, i am not that kind of person." He stood in front of me, "i haven't got a girlfriend for the longest time."

i looked at him. He looked back. "can i have another one?" He was about to draw near me when his office's door swung open.

(i feel guilty of what i did, but i want him to kiss me again.)